Saturday 5th May, 2012

Today I went to work early and lefts at half past 2 to get ready for Katies 21st Birthday Party. 

When we arrived I was nervous because Hazel had never met Elliot before. They were very nice to him though and all was fine. Everyone started to arrive around 8pm and the cocktails were lovely. We had a really nice evening and at about 10 ish me and elliot were rather tired. But we managed to keep going till midnight and then decided to go off to bed. Thankfully unnoticed. 

In the morning we woke up around 10 o’clock and when we went downstairs we were greeted with a lovely cooked breakfast. After that we chilled and chatted with everyone and we left just after 12. 

Me and Elliot took a de-tour through a small town that one of his family members lived in to show me it as apparently its haunted. 

Saturday 28th April 2012

Turns out yesterday Elliot was cleaning up his brothers room. Not dead.

He obviously knew I was a little upset at the fact I had not been texted all day and when he finally arrived home he had flowers, chocolate and coca cola. My 3 favorite things (apart from him). And as my mother taught me Men don’t just buy you flowers cause you ask, they buy them because they know they’ve done something wrong. Even if they don’t know what it is. 

And granted, it did avoid a horrible conversation. So I just put it behind me as I always do, and I will leave it to simmer and build up again, as I always do.

We did However have a lovely evening together catching up on our trashy tv e.t.c.

This morning after Elliot had left I got up and showered for work. Cycled in and it felt like I hadn’t been there in months, years even. But I got back into the rhythm quickly. At the end of the day me and my supervisor Matt were having a really good chat and laugh about our lives. He’s a funny guy and its nice to actually have a friend now. 

After work I met up with my Dad at costa we had a little chat and then got us something for dinner. Then rushed home for ‘The Voice’. 

Then I got a call from Elliot asking if it was OK for him to stay at work as one of the night staff had called in sick so he basically had to sleep in a room over night and he’d get £100 for it. Quick money. So he’ll be back in the morning to shower and then off we go again! 

Flowers:

Saturday 21st April, 2012

Today Elliot and I woke up about 8 o’clock and went to wellsbourne market. Not a massive fan of markets only because I hate people shouting at me to buy stuff, but it was actually rather good. I could go there and come away with loads of shit that I could so use. 

After that we went to tewkesbury to a Saab convention which we thought woluld be like a massive car show, but it was just a few cars in a car park. I wasn’t supposed to be going with Elliot but we were already out and he asked me to go so I did. I fell asleep on the way as I barely slept the night before. 

We didn’t stay long as it was just a couple of lads there and Elliots friend was busy and couldn’t go so we decided to go to Cheltenham. When we got there we looked around the town and ended up going to the cinema. Even though we had gone to the cinema the night before to see ‘Cabin in the woods’ (it wasn’t very good) I originally wanted to see ‘Gone’ so we went to see that and it was actually really good. 

After the cinema we traveled home and had a relaxing evening together.

Thursday April 19th 2012

To be honest I don’t know what I’ve been doing for the past week. Monday evening was goo me and Elliot save money by not going to the cinema and going to the gym instead. We played Squash for about 2 hours then went swimming/sauna/steam for another 2 hours then went home and had a bath together. It was a lovely evening.

Today has been pretty good too, we woke up and we started to neaten up Elliot’s car tyre plate things. We sanded them and everything the he spray painted them white and tomorrow he will paint them silver so they will look as good as new! After we did that which took us about 4-5 hours we decided to go to the gym again. We booked a closed court and got there at 6.

2 minutes into playing Elliot whacked a squash ball straight into the middle of my forehead. Basterd. He didn’t mean it though obviously haha!

Tonight we ordered Chinese, my treat for being injured. Then we watched a few episodes of House.

At about 10.30 Elliot wanted to go to sleep so he almost did and somehow me managed to get annoyed at each other I start crying and we resolved it by me telling him what needed to change. He felt that I wanted to leave him and go back to chichester because I started my point off with ‘the main reason I’m down occasionally is because I’m lonely, you’re my best friend but you can’t replace the empty space of a girl friend’ all he could say was ‘I want to make you happy here, I don’t want you to leave. Its my job to make you happy’ banter back and forth for a while and it resolved in he is going to try harder to make an effort.

I do love him for trying and admitting that he doesn’t make that much of an effort with our room e.t.c but hopefully things will get even better.

So now I just can’t sleep, I’ve cried twice today, although one was serious pain, but I do feel pathetic for crying so much.

Tuesday April 10th, 2012

Today I went into work and I was feeling refreshed and happy. I was also going around asking everyone if they were attending the ball which is tomorrow. Hardly anyone I know is going but I guess that way it’s more fun, and I can make friends! 

Edited note: Today was mine and Elliot’s 9 month together. I only now realize this on the 15th… oops! 

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

Today I had my first day at Warwick Castle. 

I barely slept last night because I was so worried about what to expect. I planned everything in my head and my brain just wouldn’t shut off.

I left my house at 10 to 9 to give me time to get there, and I was supposed to start at 9.30. I got there by 9 and just stood around in the car park. Then I saw a girl come in who I did my induction with so we walked in together and put our bags in a locker and went off to meet all the other newbies. We were supposed to be together on a courtyard shop selling sweets and ice creams but I got moved to Paint Your Own Shield. It was a lot of work as there were a lot of kids and had to keep painting things handing things out to people and everything. 

After 3 it went dead as the weather got worse so our supervisors came round and said that I could go home as its a lot of money to pay to people they don’t actually need in. So I got home about half 4 and just crashed I was rather tired.

My dad and I watched The Voice and Britain’s Got Talent and I then waited for Elliot to get home. I was a little crotchety with him as it was 11 o’clock so i was shattered. 

Thursday 29th March, 2012

Today me and Elliot woke up early and put together his new bike. He was so excited it was really cute it was like watching a child at christmas. It took a few hours to put together but once we did his he got out his mums bike and I used that one as the seat to my bike is so uncomfortable and hers was not so bad. So I cleaned that bike and we packed up a picnic. 

First we went to Warwick Castle to see how long it would take me to get there and it took us roughly 7 minutes. Then we went through the park and down this really long road to Halfords and brought 2 helmets and Elliot brought himself a new seat for his bike as his was really uncomfortable apparently so once that was put on we went to Sainsburys to get some more bits for our picnic. 

My bum was getting really sore so we went to the park to have our picnic. After that we headed back home and after 10 minutes we swapped bikes over. Elliot prefered my seat and I preferd his. 

When we got back we watched “50/50” and half of “The Awakening” but it wasn’t that good so we fell asleep.

March 22nd, 2012

Today Elliot and I traveled down to Chichester to see my family. 

It was really nice going together although the journey is so long!

We first went to see my granddad in his new care home. It was a really lovely place but he just kept saying how he wanted to get back to his own home. We took him out in a wheel chair along the beach and then to the local pub to have a refreshing drink. He really enjoyed the company but after an hour I decided to take him back and leave. Mainly because I could see him getting tired but also because it was hard for me to see him like that. He was repeating himself and although he remembered a lot of things It was just hard to see him forget. 

Elliot kind of made me feel guilty for only seeing him once though. I just didn’t want to bombard him with visits. We went to see my mum at work and it was such a lovely day for her to have furniture outside so she made the most of that. 

In the evening we went to my aunties house for an Indian Take-Away which was lovely and then we went back to my mums watched a movie and fell asleep. 

March 20th, 2012

So today is my favorite day of the week because Elliot finishes work in the early afternoon so we have the evening together. 

At 3 o’clock I walked into town to meet him outside of his work. It was absolutely boiling outside it was great! Once i’d met him we went to get my Pandora Bracelet then we went to boots and he brought me new mascara, lip balm and some other bits and bobs and somehow with vouchers the price amounted to less than the price of the mascara. Bonus! 

Then we went home so he could change out of his work wear and into casual and off to Coventry we went. We stopped at Taybarn for some food. It’s rather good there there’s loads of options on what to eat and you can’t get judged with what you put on your plate it could be such a random selection, but the quality isn’t that great.

After that we went to the cinema to see ‘The Devil Inside’ it was actually really really crap. Was a waster of time really, not scary at all. 

March 19th, 2012

This weekend has gone really really slow. I’ve been so bored. 

I know why though… possibly because Elliot has been working long shifts so he has gone to work at 8am and come home at 10pm which sucks because i’ve just been alone. 

Thankfully thought tomorrow is my favorite day because he goes to work at 8am and comes home at 3pm so we have the evening together which we usually spend by going to the cinema. I think tomorrow we are seeing ‘The Devil Inside Me’.  

I can also finally go and pick up my Pandora Bracelet! Missed wearing it so much! 

So tonight I’ve just been downloading random shitty games on my phone because I’ve watched practically all of the new and last season of One Tree Hill and have no one to talk to about that which also sucks. 

I’m also hungry and the cupboards are bare. 

Unacceptable

I don’t think its right for a guy to text his ex-girlfriend (who he really liked and even when he had another girlfriend cheated on her with his ex with) a message saying “Hey wanna come round for a quicky? X” Even if he did mean for a cup of tea (which he did after reading the texts that followed) THAT’S NOT HOW IT LOOKS TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND. 

I can’t believe it. This was only less than 3 months ago. I trust him but he doesn’t tell me when he goes to see her. and even though she has kids he did it to someone else I don’t think he would do it to me because he says i’m different and that he doesn’t want to be with anyone else. I trust him I do but he does it in ways that make him seem suspicious. Its more annoying than anything else. And yes it is a little weird how he is on such good terms with his ex who he says he doesn’t really like. It doesn’t seem that way in your texts boy. 

I wish I wouldn’t do this to myself, it kills me. Actually no, I wish he didn’t do this to me. I wish he saw how I don’t talk to my ex’s for this exact reason… because it does hurt.

I wrote this in my diary just over 3 months ago

“I got told the cutest thing by Elliot last night he said “im sorry for being moody, im not going to act moody when i am i’m going to be better, i’m going to be what you deserve, i love you and i want to be with you forever” and my reply was “that is some cheesy shit…” ahaha! “

Lovely Boy <3

My cute boyfriend who ran all the way home from work when I rang him asking him to take me to A&E. I didn’t have time to get my stuff together I thought he’d be ages walking he was back in 15 minutes bless him!

March 16th, 2012

Today my cousin took me to Bicester where we met Elliot and I was so happy to see him. I hate going away it doesn’t feel right being away from him. 

We got home and went to Tesco to get Elliot’s sister something for her Birthday present as out attempt on her photo frame failed. We ended up buying her a make up back and phone case from Cath Kidston (in Bicester) and All the Twilight movies. 

We then went home and watched a few episodes of House before going out with Olivia the parents and olivias 6 friends. We all went to Lazer Quest and me and Elliot went in too. Elliot got the highest score of the day (lots of practice on COD). I came 4th, 6th and 10th which i thought was pretty good. 

When we got home I begged for a Chinese as I started to get me sense of taste and smell back so I was so happy when one arrived! We watched a horror movie called “Don’t be afraid of the dark” which was pretty bad really. Very odd. Then we watched another episode of House and fell asleep. 

March 14th, 2012 (hospital day 2)

I didn’t sleep well every time I woke up by younger would be so dry and crispy and the back of my throat so clammy it tastes gross. My neck feels even more swollen than it was and after being sick last night my throat feels as if it’s burning. I’ve had some meds that make me sleepy which I feel as my eyes are feeling heavy and also anti-sickness tablets which have stayed down nicely!

My cousin wants me to go and stay with them for a few nights which, if I get out of hospital would be nice, because if I am out Elliot will be going to Milton Keynes so I’ll be with my family too. If I’m not out I know he’ll stay with me here (or at least I hope he will!) Let’s see what the day brings!