What the fuck is my life coming to? shit…

Saturday 5th May, 2012

Today I went to work early and lefts at half past 2 to get ready for Katies 21st Birthday Party. 

When we arrived I was nervous because Hazel had never met Elliot before. They were very nice to him though and all was fine. Everyone started to arrive around 8pm and the cocktails were lovely. We had a really nice evening and at about 10 ish me and elliot were rather tired. But we managed to keep going till midnight and then decided to go off to bed. Thankfully unnoticed. 

In the morning we woke up around 10 o’clock and when we went downstairs we were greeted with a lovely cooked breakfast. After that we chilled and chatted with everyone and we left just after 12. 

Me and Elliot took a de-tour through a small town that one of his family members lived in to show me it as apparently its haunted. 

Saturday 28th April 2012

Turns out yesterday Elliot was cleaning up his brothers room. Not dead.

He obviously knew I was a little upset at the fact I had not been texted all day and when he finally arrived home he had flowers, chocolate and coca cola. My 3 favorite things (apart from him). And as my mother taught me Men don’t just buy you flowers cause you ask, they buy them because they know they’ve done something wrong. Even if they don’t know what it is. 

And granted, it did avoid a horrible conversation. So I just put it behind me as I always do, and I will leave it to simmer and build up again, as I always do.

We did However have a lovely evening together catching up on our trashy tv e.t.c.

This morning after Elliot had left I got up and showered for work. Cycled in and it felt like I hadn’t been there in months, years even. But I got back into the rhythm quickly. At the end of the day me and my supervisor Matt were having a really good chat and laugh about our lives. He’s a funny guy and its nice to actually have a friend now. 

After work I met up with my Dad at costa we had a little chat and then got us something for dinner. Then rushed home for ‘The Voice’. 

Then I got a call from Elliot asking if it was OK for him to stay at work as one of the night staff had called in sick so he basically had to sleep in a room over night and he’d get £100 for it. Quick money. So he’ll be back in the morning to shower and then off we go again! 

Flowers:

Friday 27th April 2012

I’ve just got back from Doncaster. Me and Katie went to visit our nan. It was nice but my nan does rub me up the wrong way sometimes.

Elliot couldnt’t be more of an idiot. Is it really that much to ask for a morning text to say “hello?” well you’d be lucky to get anything out of him. I’m always texting him always checking he’s ok, always me. I’m never the looked after always the look afterer, if that makes any sense. 

I’m really considering leaving. Don’t know if i’d be happier but I know eventually I wouldn’t feel down in the dumps all the time. 

He’s not picking up his phone and he didn’t answer my texts earlier so i look like a desperate, possessive girlfriend and he’s just a absolute idiot for not answering. All I wanted to do was hear his voice and make sure he’s ok. He doesn’t get that… I want to just turn off my phone and not care but the thing is i do care, way too much.  

Saturday 21st April, 2012

Today Elliot and I woke up about 8 o’clock and went to wellsbourne market. Not a massive fan of markets only because I hate people shouting at me to buy stuff, but it was actually rather good. I could go there and come away with loads of shit that I could so use. 

After that we went to tewkesbury to a Saab convention which we thought woluld be like a massive car show, but it was just a few cars in a car park. I wasn’t supposed to be going with Elliot but we were already out and he asked me to go so I did. I fell asleep on the way as I barely slept the night before. 

We didn’t stay long as it was just a couple of lads there and Elliots friend was busy and couldn’t go so we decided to go to Cheltenham. When we got there we looked around the town and ended up going to the cinema. Even though we had gone to the cinema the night before to see ‘Cabin in the woods’ (it wasn’t very good) I originally wanted to see ‘Gone’ so we went to see that and it was actually really good. 

After the cinema we traveled home and had a relaxing evening together.

My cousin has just given birth to a little baby boy called Oliver!

Thursday April 19th 2012

To be honest I don’t know what I’ve been doing for the past week. Monday evening was goo me and Elliot save money by not going to the cinema and going to the gym instead. We played Squash for about 2 hours then went swimming/sauna/steam for another 2 hours then went home and had a bath together. It was a lovely evening.

Today has been pretty good too, we woke up and we started to neaten up Elliot’s car tyre plate things. We sanded them and everything the he spray painted them white and tomorrow he will paint them silver so they will look as good as new! After we did that which took us about 4-5 hours we decided to go to the gym again. We booked a closed court and got there at 6.

2 minutes into playing Elliot whacked a squash ball straight into the middle of my forehead. Basterd. He didn’t mean it though obviously haha!

Tonight we ordered Chinese, my treat for being injured. Then we watched a few episodes of House.

At about 10.30 Elliot wanted to go to sleep so he almost did and somehow me managed to get annoyed at each other I start crying and we resolved it by me telling him what needed to change. He felt that I wanted to leave him and go back to chichester because I started my point off with ‘the main reason I’m down occasionally is because I’m lonely, you’re my best friend but you can’t replace the empty space of a girl friend’ all he could say was ‘I want to make you happy here, I don’t want you to leave. Its my job to make you happy’ banter back and forth for a while and it resolved in he is going to try harder to make an effort.

I do love him for trying and admitting that he doesn’t make that much of an effort with our room e.t.c but hopefully things will get even better.

So now I just can’t sleep, I’ve cried twice today, although one was serious pain, but I do feel pathetic for crying so much.

Wednesday April 11th, 2012

Today I didn’t have work. I slowly got up after a little lie in and I went downstairs and sat on my laptop for what seemed like 5 minutes but it was actually hours. Before I knew it, it was 6’clock so I began to get ready for the work party which was at 7.30

I got there and I knew a few faces but it was packed with people I had never met. I chatted to a few people and then my friends arrived. We hung out for a bit in the court yard and got given little tickets which put us in our groups for the dungeon. 

We then went on to the court yard where we got champagne and then our group was called to go into the last 3 room of the dungeons (it was the witches ball so the staff could see the new dungeon room ‘witches of warwick’). So we went in it was dark and scary, how i remember it from the first time I went in. The witches of warwick room was worse. people jumped out at you it was just horrible. After that me and Kirsty went to the great hall where we had dinner of chicken and rice and there was the bar and the dance floor.

I had a beer with my meal and that on from that the drinks kept coming. Rob kept buying me loads of sambuca and by 11.30 I was trashed. I didn’t want to leave so Elliot said instead of picking me up at 11.30 he would come when it finished at 1.30 

It was an amazing night. It’s surprising how much I remember really. I know I was sick a lot when I got home. 

The dance floor.

Rob me and Joe

Tuesday April 10th, 2012

Today I went into work and I was feeling refreshed and happy. I was also going around asking everyone if they were attending the ball which is tomorrow. Hardly anyone I know is going but I guess that way it’s more fun, and I can make friends! 

Edited note: Today was mine and Elliot’s 9 month together. I only now realize this on the 15th… oops! 

Monday April 10th, 2012

Today I did absolutely nothing. I watched TV and sat on my laptop all day. It was lovely. I only did this because I wanted to relax before work tomorrow. 

Sunday April 9th, 2012

Today I went to my mums work to help her with her new Vintage business. They were having a vintage fair with lots of stalls and my mum had been planning it for weeks and weeks. It was a lovely day with only spots of rain. 

She was even more please when my cousin Darren arrived with his girlfriend. And even more please than that when my grandparents arrived unannounced. They traveled all the way from Kent to see her and the even that she had planned and talked about for months. She was so happy she cried a lot. 

She didn’t make much money herself, but everyone said that they would come back and she got a lot more interest from store holders who wanted to take part in the following weeks. 

I left Chichester that evening at 18:45 and arrived home at 22:11 with Elliot waiting for me. It was lovely to be back I had missed him a lot. 

Saturday 7th April, 2012

Today me and Steph woke up and went to my mums work to help her set up for tomorrows fair. At 12 Mandy took us to Chichester on her way home and we went shopping and I brought a top and two more pairs of earrings. We went to costa for ages and then decided to go back to my house to watch a movie to which Steph fell asleep! Later at 6 o’clock me and mum took Steph home and then went to meet Megan and her mum at a restaurant which we ended up skipping for Indian, which was lovely. After that I went back to Megan’s and we have been on Tumblr all evening (cool kids) and now she is singing to Disney whilst her fucking Internet decides not to work.

On my way back home to Chichester!

Woop!

March 4th, 2012

Today I had work at 9.30 I was there bang on and did almost everything by myself with minor screw ups.

By 12 we were freezing it was pouring down with rain and at half 12 it started to snow. Finally at 1 my tent was shut as I made no sales and there was no shelter from the weather.

On my way home my hands were turning blue and I could barely feel my fingers. I was home by half 2 and I jumped straight into bed!

I started to text loads of people making sure they are still free for this week and I’m seeing Steph and Ellie
on Friday, Megan on Saturday and Emily tomorrow so I’m really exited as I have not seen them in months!

I had a lovely bath to warm up my legs and am now watching crapy tv to pass the time away!

Early train tomorrow at 8.30! So I’ll be nice and wary into Chichester by 12 :) so exited!